“this is all i’m good for”
unknown model, gif found on tumblr, here used for review only
i love her saying “this is all i’m good for”. because that means she knows she has value.
a plumber is good for nothing but installing a toilet, perhaps.
and a programmer is useless until you need someone to provide some custom code, or whatever.
likewise, a sex worker or an adult entertainer is useless until you need to masturbate, and you want, or need, to make it interesting.
but there is a built-in shamefulness in this kind of work.
and that, i believe, is exactly what makes it interesting to many women: the degradation.
now i know that degradation is a two edged sword, and could very well be confusing to many of these women. or even traumatizing… so this is dangerous play.
for some.
but that is precisely why it’s special and important!
one of my brother’s friends became an underwater welder. my brother’s friend could earn $250 per hour… because of the danger involved. even when every precaution is taken, underwater welding is still a very dangerous job, which is why it is so highly remunerated.
sex workers should be highly remunerated too, and it is a terrible shame when they aren’t. feminists should be fighting this awful, exploitative, unregulated situation with all their might. some of them are, i’m sure… i should learn more about the politics around this issue.
in my opinion, her verbalized self-devaluation is part of the edge-play. and it is the exciting part, to me. i am not attracted to female bodies… i am, however, attracted to edgy situations, and i identify with the girl in these situations… which is why looking at porn like this has become exciting to me.
but the only reason why it’s sexy to say “this is all i’m good for” is because it’s not really true. what she is doing is very brave, and even if she has no other skills or talents, her willingness to do this, and her ability to smile and exude charm while doing this, makes her extremely valuable. she is an underwater welder.
likewise, bimbos wouldn’t be sexy if they were really the morons that they claim to be… what’s sexy about them is that there’s a real person inside that partly modified – and painstakingly sculpted – body, saying those terrible things about herself.
“i’m so stupid i can’t function other than to do whatever you tell me to do, no matter how demeaning”.
“i am exclusively driven by my sexual impulses to such a degree that i can’t resist having sex with any man who wants me, even if they approach me in the most vulgar and off-putting way imaginable”.
these sorts of a statements can’t be sexy unless there is a real person in there, having a fully human experience, including all the shame and degradation you might expect.
if there were no shame, and she was actually a mere automaton, this wouldn’t be sexy. it is the fact that she has lowered herself to this demeaning position, and she enjoys it, maybe despite herself, that is the key.
it’s sexy because it is a sexualized response to psychological bullying. it’s a form of power exchange… she is exchanging power with “men in general ‘ rather than with a specific, trustworthy Master.. how brave is that!
i personally find it incredibly hot.
and i am sure i am not the only woman who does…
i can’t possibly be the only female who dreams of being an insatiable, degraded whore.
7 responses to ““this is all i’m good for””
-
Looks like the model might be Riley Reid.
Sex makes the world go round. And sex workers have a very important job. They put their bodies on the line and should be compensated much more than they currently are. With better protections and worker rights to boot.
I believe that sex workers are first and foremost, actresses. They have to put on a persona that pleases their clientele. And having to keep up that persona takes work and dedication.
I agree that degradation without any foundation to degrade is not as appealing as a true “fall from grace” as it were. But if the lady were to willingly display herself as a sexual object and own it… she’s reclaiming her sexuality and freedom of expression. Even more titillating if she is someone of status, or has high qualifications. For a woman with power to be brought low… that must be a power dynamic that is the envy of men and women everywhere… the women want it. And the men desire to give it to her. No?
I do believe this desire of women to be whores is ingrained to most women some extent. But they hold themselves back for one reason or another. Only the brave ones can really “out” themselves as true whores.
LikeLike
-
i love the way you think, Master Jammin!
i don’t think all women desire to be whores, or that all women desire any one thing. i think women’s sexual interests are every bit as varied and individual as men’s are, and although i don’t have any practical solutions, i still want to call attention to the problem, because there are distinct consequences to being closeted: namely, loneliness.
-
-
I’m sure I’ve seen the woman in that gif before…
From reading a fair bit of stuff written by various sexworkers, I think a lot of them would rather be seen more like plumbers than objects – they’re professionals who turn up and provide a service, and sometimes they have to deal with people’s shit, and sometimes they just have to make sure the pipes are flowing nicely. But they also have to deal with all the societal stigma around sex, and treating sex as a normal, commodifiable human behaviour like programming or plumbing – rather than icky and sinful – and that takes next-level coping skills that plumbers don’t need to have. Unlike underwater welding, though, sex work is not inherently a dangerous activity, except for societal attitudes. Your average underwater welder isn’t in danger of being beaten to death by a client just because that client feels they should be allowed to.
As far as being treated like absolute fuckmeat goes, I’m certain you’re not alone in your desires; but having a woman like you is a male fantasy that sexworkers, business-people that they are, capitalise on, and perform under controlled circumstances – whereas you, and willingly degraded sluts like you, are special-needs cases, and it’s not role-playing. You actually are that, and you do it for free (all of which I applaud.)
It’s very hot that you are open about your desires, and your shame, and that you seek out shame, humiliation, pain, and degradation. As much as I enjoy watching pornstars who will do that for cash, and perhaps even have fun doing it, it’s hobbyists, lifestyle amateurs like you who are the real deal. Pure slut, being dragged around by your hungry cunt, begging to be used. Don’t stop.
LikeLike
-
-
you could certainly try to stop, Jan, but it’s nature – and in Tom Waits’ wise words, it always comes roaring back!
If you were able to consciously master your base instincts for lustful indulgence, they would pour out from your unconscious in your sleep. You’ve tasted the fruit, you can’t un-taste it.
-
january josephine 
Leave a reply to furdegree Cancel reply